Sunday, June 28, 2009 Y 5:26 PM
I'm at an utter loss of words. I don't know what can I used to explain the recent feeling that I have. There are simply too many things going on that is making it hard to cope and stay happy. There is the break up, my parents constant quarrelling which is getting worser and worser, my favourite pet rabbit which died, my decreased in self confidence that I can do a proper full time job and dedicate myself to it.
I dunno why...but I have been having sleepless nights, thinking about it. Feeling like shit now because of all the things happening. I don't really know whether I can cope with work anymore now. The initial confidence that I had for work was now diminished because of my parents bickering and my mom's perception of me.
Plus my mom's super high expectations of me is really suffocating me. I'm really tired but right now, I need a good cry and settled my pet's cremation. Feeling really upset now.
Y 5:26 PM
I'm at an utter loss of words. I don't know what can I used to explain the recent feeling that I have. There are simply too many things going on that is making it hard to cope and stay happy. There is the break up, my parents constant quarrelling which is getting worser and worser, my favourite pet rabbit which died, my decreased in self confidence that I can do a proper full time job and dedicate myself to it.
I dunno why...but I have been having sleepless nights, thinking about it. Feeling like shit now because of all the things happening. I don't really know whether I can cope with work anymore now. The initial confidence that I had for work was now diminished because of my parents bickering and my mom's perception of me.
Plus my mom's super high expectations of me is really suffocating me. I'm really tired but right now, I need a good cry and settled my pet's cremation. Feeling really upset now.
Monday, June 1, 2009 Y 6:31 AM
Couldn't sleep yesterday night, not too sure is it because I'm too excited for work or because I'm not used to sleeping too early. Woke up real early and went to work, feeling fresh like never before, perhaps a long time ago when I had started work few years ago.
The break was indeed good for me. Had a relaxing day at work cause still orientation. Traveling tires me out cause of the long distances. Had a great workout at home after that, for 25 minutes cause I was fluish and tired.
Somehow I misses someone when I settled down and everything came to a halt. Whatever it is, it was still love and effort invested into a relationship, and you can't say forget about it just like that. Yeah I still misses him but I can't help it if he doesn't wants to talk to me.
At least, I sincerely hope if we can't be lovers, we can be friends.
Y 6:31 AM
Couldn't sleep yesterday night, not too sure is it because I'm too excited for work or because I'm not used to sleeping too early. Woke up real early and went to work, feeling fresh like never before, perhaps a long time ago when I had started work few years ago.
The break was indeed good for me. Had a relaxing day at work cause still orientation. Traveling tires me out cause of the long distances. Had a great workout at home after that, for 25 minutes cause I was fluish and tired.
Somehow I misses someone when I settled down and everything came to a halt. Whatever it is, it was still love and effort invested into a relationship, and you can't say forget about it just like that. Yeah I still misses him but I can't help it if he doesn't wants to talk to me.
At least, I sincerely hope if we can't be lovers, we can be friends.
