To my Little Brownie

My pet Brownie died today, being only 5 months old. I never lost an animal at such young age before. He apparently gotten some fungi infection, lost so much weight and grew so thin. He lost so much fur and his skin was red. I was going to bring him to a vet but he died before I could.

I may have caused his death. My mom applied the medicine prescribed by the vet for her rabbit on him, and next day, which is today, he died. The medicine could be too harsh for his little liver. I felt very guilty, to cause his prematured death. He wouldn't have died if I just left it and brought him to a vet. He was still eating well and drinking well. What could mostly be the thing that killed him was us, applying wrong medication on him. I shouldn't have allowed my mom to apply it for him but I guess we were at good intentions. Never expecting that it could cause his death.

This week does not spell a good week. All the bad news and death of Brownie really overhaul all happiness and cast grey skies. I have my eyes cried till swollen and red. Sigh, I wish I can have a break.

Little Brownie, I'm sorry for the pain I caused you. I hope you will rest in peace and forgive me for my ignorance. I buried you under the plants, at the soil, down at my house, where I will remember you, each time i walked by there. I buried you in nice corn cob, with food and flowers surrounding you. I hope you wouldn't be hungry throughout your journey in the other world. I hope you forgive me for all bad I have done as an owner.

I'm truly sorry.

Mommy has 2 things (cyst and fibroid) in her womb. We will only know whether it's benign or malignant when she goes to the check up next week.

I'm hurrying her to change her work schedule tomorrow so she can go to the polyclinic to get a referral cause she complained it's too expensive to go via GP but she insists there is no way to change her shifts. What the hell is so important than health? All this stupid people in Metro who are not flexible to changes.

I hope Mommy is going to be okay. It's not the first time she had it. The last time round, we were lucky it was benign. It happened when I was in Australia and I only knew it when I'm back.

A part of me would like to go up and give her a hug but I don't dare to, for fear of crying before anything is decided. Sigh.

I caught Evangelion (1.0): You are not alone, on last Sunday on OKTO. I must first admit, I have never watched any series of Evangelion before, so when I watched this movie, I didn't know exactly what it was about.

My first impression was that the main character was weak. As the movie progresses, I do realised that he has many emotions and issues that he have to deal with too, being 14 and fighting Angels of life and death, having a strange father (which I didn't know what he was up to), having no emotional attachment and bonding to any one. Perhaps, it was easy for me to judge him based on that superficiality that I saw, but deep down and behind, there could be things leading to what constitutes that personality.

I'm not a fan of this type of anime, about machines, about war but it hooked me till the end of the show. Alot of emotions and feelings were conveyed in that movie, although dark at times, but it makes you think of certain things.

Perhaps, I should watch the episodes to really understand what's the hype about.

Magdagascar Marathon

It was a Magdagascar marathon movie night on Friday, don't get me wrong, I didn't pirated the cd to watch it. Instead, I watched it on the big screen at GV PS. LS suggested to catch that and since I'm an avid fan of cartoons, I agreed. So it was the 3 of us, Denise, LS and me that went to catch the movie.

I tot initially that I would fall asleep as I watched part 1 before on the big screen and on TV last Sunday. Surprisingly, I did not. It could be: 1) I was busy eating my dinner and popcorn, 2) I was happily laughing away.

What was amazing was part 2 was even funnier! I did read the reviews and they said it was bad so I was quite skeptical about it. Yes, the plot did seem a bit empty but the laughter was real. I had a jolly good time laughing away at the movie. The greedy me even refilled the popcorn (we were allowed free flow of popcorn and drink). Stupidly, you have to go out of the cinema and queue at the counter for your refill, like whose going to do that during the movie. Naturally, everyone went during the interval. It was lightening ending to the hectic week of work which is going to get even more serious for the next 3 weeks. I will missed my TA yeah, she's so much lovelier than, oh well.


Phin's Steakhouse
Ken brought me to Phin's Steakhouse for steak again on last Wed. Sadly, the standard of the food and the customer service dropped and it was disappointing. I used to enjoy the steaks from Phin's Steakhouse alot but now it's rather average.


I'm been getting rather lazy and monotonous with my blog postings....think I lost the mood to really blog....blogging becomes a thing for me to remember things. Haha.....anyway, too tired and busy to blog also. And, if I stay over at Zhu's house, he will ask me to go sleep rather than blog. Anyway, sleep time now!

Everyone is getting married or having babies. Been to Ken's colleague's baby 1st month sometime back. Chubby lil baby that was sleeping away. There were so many other babies that were there too, and Ken's Boss's son, the lil boy is as big as how long we were together. He's the lil baby that inspired my dear bf to first sms me. Dearie Azi also having her baby soon....and dearie Lionel is as chubby as a bag of rice.

Have you ever seen a life size human plaster? I did wahahahaha. I seen one big one, shorter than me though, that sticks to the object that needs to be plastered for as many hours as I seen. Evil yeah me....hehe....only LS and Ken will know what I'm talking about.

Slaved through 2 weeks and finished a project as well as a presentation for SIG. Think I did okay for the SIG, although it was rather last minute they told me to present. Got free gifts for being the speaker, a useful measuring tape that I could measure my hip fractured patients.

Celebrated Shawnie's birthday on 8th November and Xiaowen's super belated birthday too. For XW, we had it at Tampopo restaurant and yummy, I had my dosage of Japanese curry! Too bad, I didn't go to Mediya, which was a favourite place for me to frequent too but nevertheless, spend time catching up with JC mates, at the expense of me being called an Auntie for my hairstyle (mate! no one else said my hair looked auntish, all said it looked nice! nevertheless, it will determine my drive to grow it long again). As for Shawnie, it's our usual celebration at Grandpa's house coupled with cake and pictionary.

Favourite part? I'm going to Desaru, thanks to Zhu for his kindness! Finally a break overseas! Although short but at least worth it. Think I will be really tired after that.

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